Hello, hello! I hope that y’all are well! Today is Yom Kippur and I’m lying in bed and reflecting. I’m trying to figure out my Judaism. I’ve been so busy with life that I haven’t been keeping track of it. I know you are thinking “is this girl crazy? She doesn’t know where her Judaism went?”. Well, a lot has changed in the past year and it’s the first time I’ve looked deeply at myself and my religion. When I lived at home it was easy. My mom scheduled family dinners and we all celebrated together. When you live far from family and your husband works at a Jewish organization it becomes harder to figure out where you fit in. I’ve really tried to distance myself from my husband’s work…well…because….it’s his work. The only time it really becomes an issue is when Jewish holidays are involved. If I do not go with him, then I don’t see him. I guess I knew that when I signed on to marry a Jewish professional, but at that point I still lived near my family and was getting the total experience. I try to go with the hubs sometimes, but I always try and stay in the background because he’s so busy and sometimes my introverted ways get the best of me. I went to services last night at the Reform temple and it just didn’t fit. I kept looking at the back door waiting for the hubs to walk in and for us to experience it together. Needless to say, that didn’t happen. It just doesn’t feel like the holidays right now. I miss home. Sometimes growing pains are a little too intense. I definitely need to find my own way to get involved here, but I don’t know how just yet.
I hope that everyone is having a meaningful Yom Kippur and really searching deep. I’m trying. It will just take some time.
No comments:
Post a Comment